/ Wednesday, September 20, 2006
F-U-C-K!!!
F-U-C-K!!!
F-U-C-K!!!
FUCK MAN! Sometimes I really don't understand what and how a woman's mind thinks! And that one person that I'll never ever understand is my ****ing mother's mind. Yea, she can say one thing now and totally change it with a snap of her fingers. Yea man, seriously think that she is having her pms or something. Oh, and she can just flare up and screw my arse over the slightest things and and close 2 eyes on the big things.
Take just now for example. Just because I'm unable to fetch that big baby cousin of mine, and that my aunt is picking me up later for my facial, and it means that we'll be having lunch together, she just flare up again. Saying(in a loud and mean voice) "You think this house your hotel and I'm your servant? And you do think you can do things are your whim and fancy?" Oh, and now it's the usual cold war again.
Oh, and yesterday, I just fucking flunk my driving test, and she wants to know is to keep pestering me when I'll be going for my next lesson. Hey fuck this! Can you be more sensitive to people's feelings? Yea, I know you love my little brother alot. Thank You very much! I also have my own plans, and I'm the one who is doing the driving, not you. Ok? So, please don't show of your English here, with all those "catchy" or "cool" phrases you picked up(Hell I know where). And please don't assume, yea, assume. All you know how to do is assume. And I'm always the one who is getting the brunt of all your anger!
Seriously, I've never seen you give a cold war with your precious younger son and daughter before. Yea, and you've never deprived them of what they enjoy doing either. All you do to them is a small 'scolding', I don't even know if scolding is the right word, and the next thing you know, everything is fine. Even when that time you found out that my sister has a boyfriend. Oh, and what did you do? Just talk nicely. Why can't you do the same to me? All you can do is flare up at me over the slightest thing.
Yea, that's the "Neo-family genes" according to jur. But I think that my mom's worse. Look at the way she treats me. Even jur can tell. Sigh, hard life. And she is like screwing me in everything I does. Yea, everything I do is also wrong in your eyes.
Somethings, i seriously wish that there some of the "rules" of life could be changed. It's like, not everything is one party's fault. When there is a mistake, both parties are also at wrong. But me, as the younger generation, is unable to speak out, for later I would be said, unfillial and the likes. And go down to hell for that.
I've already and always done my part as a son. But you're always using a telescope to look at me. And always aiming at all the blunders I've made. But I've always kept quiet, and my tolerance level is reaching it's peak.
Sometimes, I look at the way you treat my brother and me, sigh, I don't wish to talk about it anymore. I just want to learn my guitar, do the things I enjoy, have lots of activites that require me to be out more often. Now I understand, why sometimes my dad choose to work late, rather than coming back home early.
Signing off for now, all I can wish for is a better life. Now that my childhood is so ruined.
Oh, and I passed my exams! And my GPA went up! Coolio!
/Hopped!
12:25 PM
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